Demi Lovato has spoken on the recent alleged overdose of rapper DMX, and what it has felt like seeing the news while in the thick of her own battle with addiction.
The 28-year-old singer overdosed on heroin laced with fentanyl in 2018 and has only recently opened up about how close she was to dying in Dancing With the Devil, her four-part documentary series on YouTube.
News broke over the weekend that Grammy-winner DMX, 50, suffered a heart attack following an alleged overdose. He is currently in hospital.
Lovato spoke on TMZ Live about the news, saying “that could have been [her].”
“Any time I see somebody OD or pass away that’s in the public eye I immediately think, ‘That could have been you had you not been putting all this work into the last couple of years of your life,'” the musician said.
“There’s times I’ve even talked about feeling survivor’s guilt. You do ask yourself, ‘Why am I still here, why are others not?’ It’s a challenging thing to get over… I had to realise that every day is a day that someone else doesn’t get.”
“Every day I am here on this earth is a day that I need to be counting my blessings for and just being appreciative and grateful for. It makes me want to live the best life I can possibly live knowing others didn’t get the chance that I did,” she said.
Lovato has been in the public eye ever since she was a child, beginning her acting career in 2002 starring as Angela on Barney & Friends.
The star has been open about how being in the public eye has negatively impacted her battle with addiction, eating disorders and mental health.
Recently, Lovato spoke about how her substance abuse functioned as a “coping mechanism” on the podcast Yeh No I’m Not OK.
“In the same way [drug use] almost killed me, it saved my life at times, because there were times that I dealt with suicidal ideations. And had I gone forward with that in that moment, instead of another destructive coping mechanism, I wouldn’t be here to tell my story,” she said.
“I know how else to deal and how else to cope so I don’t have to resort to those behaviours again.”
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